Monday Dec 12 '05
so tired (10) 
I’m getting tired at 7:00 PM still, but I’m staying up late to finish a few things. New layout! I put up last year’s Christmas layout for about 6 hours or so. After I stopped trying to make a new Christmas layout I actually put something together I rather like.. EMI-ちゃん！！
I sent out all Xmas gifts Saturday. I spent $80.00 in shipping costs! Seriously! Next year, people in my family are ALL getting light and tiny things. I just REALLY hope they send me gifts this year. I just don’t see it happening. My Mom won’t get to the post office before the last shipping date or… she won’t go at all and will just send a card. She’s really not that dependable for those kinds of things. I will feel TOTALLY unloved from it too. It’s bad enough I’ll be alone here for Xmas (cept for Mike of course, har har.)
A g irl at Fan Club always asks if I’ve folded all my cranes and wish boats yet. I bought quite a few, but every time I go in and she’s working she asks… and I say “no.” I know it sounds dumb… but I’d like to say “no, why don’t you help me?!” I want friends so badly it’s pathetic (=___=). My old friends from Mississippi aren’t calling or emailing me anymore. I can’t call them because Verizon fucked our phone last week. First we went 2 days without a dial tone. Then the DSL got messed up even though it’s through AT&T, and now our caller ID & Long Distance isn’t working and we’ve been calling them for 3 days. They have NOOOOOO clue they said and want to charge us $90.00 so they can come look in our apartment for the problem.
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Jen @ 10:03 pm ; Monday [url]
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Sunday Dec 11 '05
a post about a few negatives in my current life (11)
OK, my recent posts have been superficial and lacking in my true feelings. Then I abandoned my blog for a week. Why? Well, it’s their fault. I still feel violated. Like this diary isn’t safe anymore. But you know what??????….. FUCK THAT! NO MORE PRIVATE POSTS JUST TO SPARE THEIR FUCKIN’ LAME FEELINGS. If you are still reading this, fuck off. My “roommate” and is psycho girlfriend must have ZERO life to still be reading this so it’s your own fault if you get upset. If you read this and get upset, then you can throw a baby-boo-hoo fit and storm out. And hey, while you’re out, get some bleach wipes for your stanky-ass bathroom won’t cha!????!!!
So, Mike and I are fighting again… big surprise. GOD, I really hate my living situation. I try so so so hard to clean everyday after I get home from work only to come home to stank everyday. Shit happened a few days ago and HOPEFULLY that won’t be the case anymore. But it doesn’t seem to matter. Mike & I are still on edge with each other. Everyone seems to forget we are in a fuckin’ ongoing relationship. HELLO!? Maybe our current situation is like, um, hard on us??? Ya think? Maybe? I dunno, think about it!!! Everything I do is a federal case. I wrote in the dust on the TV “Fuck off”, and it’s being investigated like I’m a war criminal. Lord forbid I write foul language for the hell of it!
OK, enough with the sarcasm. Seriously, this whole situation is straining our relationship. Sometimes I really want to move out.
So anyway, that’s not all I was going to say, but I forget the rest. I’m really on edge and I feel I need a drink. I’ve been coming home from work the past couple of days at 5:00pm and going to bed at 7:00pm, waking up at 6:00AM to go back to work.
A lot of GOOD things are happening as well, I just felt like venting out in the open right now.
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Jen @ 3:14 pm ; Sunday [url]
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