a post about a few negatives in my current life

OK, my recent posts have been superficial and lacking in my true feelings. Then I abandoned my blog for a week. Why? Well, it’s their fault. I still feel violated. Like this diary isn’t safe anymore. But you know what??????….. FUCK THAT! NO MORE PRIVATE POSTS JUST TO SPARE THEIR FUCKIN’ LAME FEELINGS. If you are still reading this, fuck off. My “roommate” and is psycho girlfriend must have ZERO life to still be reading this so it’s your own fault if you get upset. If you read this and get upset, then you can throw a baby-boo-hoo fit and storm out. And hey, while you’re out, get some bleach wipes for your stanky-ass bathroom won’t cha!????!!!

So, Mike and I are fighting again… big surprise. GOD, I really hate my living situation. I try so so so hard to clean everyday after I get home from work only to come home to stank everyday. Shit happened a few days ago and HOPEFULLY that won’t be the case anymore. But it doesn’t seem to matter. Mike & I are still on edge with each other. Everyone seems to forget we are in a fuckin’ ongoing relationship. HELLO!? Maybe our current situation is like, um, hard on us??? Ya think? Maybe? I dunno, think about it!!! Everything I do is a federal case. I wrote in the dust on the TV “Fuck off”, and it’s being investigated like I’m a war criminal. Lord forbid I write foul language for the hell of it!

OK, enough with the sarcasm. Seriously, this whole situation is straining our relationship. Sometimes I really want to move out.

So anyway, that’s not all I was going to say, but I forget the rest. I’m really on edge and I feel I need a drink. I’ve been coming home from work the past couple of days at 5:00pm and going to bed at 7:00pm, waking up at 6:00AM to go back to work.

A lot of GOOD things are happening as well, I just felt like venting out in the open right now.

posted at 3:14 pm ; Sunday   

1. Nikki said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 3:56 pm

   Take good care of yourself. I know how it is to have the bad and good in life at the same time. Just never forget “you” because over all at some point we just have to put ourselves first despite what it may do to others. Do what is best for you when it comes down to it.

2. Brittany said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 5:40 pm

   I love your new layout Jen darling. I know living with people and especially someone you love is very hard, because there is a constant pressure to get along, but you seem good for each other, and I want to see everything go well for your sake. Hope your holidays are as sweet as can be. I’ll be going home soon to see family. Have a good time in Wash.

3. Leanne said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 6:28 pm

   that’s right! it doesn’t matter about those people who have made you feel violated. you can express whatever you want and all that matters is YOU. you must fix yourself up first before you can fix the things around you.

4. Jenn said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 8:29 pm

   Hello!! Glad you got your internet up and going. XD I love the new layout, too, but it’s kinda said - the title, that is. I know what you’re going through, thanks for keeping me posted. I’m glad you’re blogging again and not trying to spare “anyone’s” feeling, who cares what they think and if they don’t like what you have to say - OH WELL!! Anyway, if they are still reading your blog then that says it all. I got your lovely letter the other day, very cute, as usual. Take care and talk to ya soon.

5. Midori said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 10:10 pm

   Pretty new layout, I like the little fax machine by your name as well!
   I gotta root for you Jen, and hope that the psychos leave you be.
   Adios chica!

6. Rebecca said,

   December 11, 2005 @ 11:29 pm

   aww feel better…. tomorrow will be a better day? :/

   loving the new layout
   and the colors too!

7. lain said,

   December 12, 2005 @ 12:33 am

   lol u changed layout AGIAN? OMG BUT I LOVE EMI SAN ~~~ love this layout, love her boots, i want boots =( .. yeah anyways~~ hope everything’s doing ok over there

8. Livv said,

   December 12, 2005 @ 8:15 am

   I’ve been wondering about you! You weren’t updating for awhile so I assumed your life was getting pretty busy~ I hear you about working a lot!! For me it’s wake up, school, work, homeowork until past midnight, sleep. It’s so awful that those 2 are bugging you again! Gosh. I wish they would just leave you alone *hugs*

9. Brittany said,

   December 12, 2005 @ 12:31 pm

   o_o playing with the layout??? where do you find such cute pictures?

10. sleepii said,

    December 12, 2005 @ 8:00 pm

    Wow, I know how you feel, it’s happened to me but I don’t care ; Except the ex-friend of mine never had the gall to confront me about ANYTHING, she liked to stick to talkin shit behind my back. Stupidheads…argh. Waugh….that’s terrible o_o Sorry to sound dumb, but why does it stank everyday? Was it the flood situation from a while ago? o_o??

    Blogs are for venting ^o^ speaking of which, I have to go back and rant about someish @_@

11. Meru said,

    December 13, 2005 @ 11:24 am

    I know how you feel. Matt has been so pissy with me lately, it seems. I know he’s not the only one to blame, but I’ve been stressed about finals all week and he snaps at me and says it’s no big deal. Riiiight. -_- Well, I’ll elaborate in a letter I guess! I’m going to send your mini-Xmas package tomorrow!

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