Discovered his work through the Renwick and later found another of his pieces in New York. He uses binary code to create beautiful lighted suspended pieces. Each light has a piece of personally written code telling it to turn on or off creating a visual representation of the binary system. It also creates light patterns that are unique in the moment and avoids any sort of pre-programmed looping. There is another of his installations in DC I still need to make my way to seeing.

One of my resolutions last year was to learn 5 new recipes to add to my current rotation. Well I surpassed that by far but one of the best recipes I finally picked up was for Nikujaga. While in New York I bought this Japanese recipe book “Create Eat Happy” that had a bunch of simple home cooked meals. Nikujaga has made cooking dinner some nights very, very easy and it’s very very versatile. The hardest part might be finding the right beef but if you have an HMart or Lotte it will be easy. Also Trader Joe’s and Harris Teeter in my area carry the beef. Actually my every-day grocery store carries it now too but the quality is not so good. The version from Trader Joe’s has actually been the best quality.


Here’s the recipe I started out with at Create Eat Happy.
I suffer from Seasonal Affected Disorder and during those times things crop up for me. I’ve always been determined to better myself even when times are tough and this year was no different. I was looking into some research and came across this book Toxic Parents. The title is straightforward. It delves into lingering issues many adults may suffer from due to their relationship with their parent(s) as a child and even into adulthood. Without getting into details this book is tough, requires a lot of work, and has already started making my life better. We are taught to be so cautious about how we discuss our parents. How we should honor them no matter what. But for myself and many out there understanding how toxic relationships can shape us beyond childhood is important and shouldn’t be ignored. If you think you might be interested (and you know if your parent(s) were/are toxic, trust me, there is no gray area here,) but can’t afford to purchase it I will say if you Google the title and add pdf you’ll find it. I had actually skimmed the book years ago through pdf but didn’t read it. I wasn’t ready to face the truth at the time.
I saw a short text post where someone’s ambition was to someday be able to donate to GoFundMe and not just share the page through social media. I spent a lot of the year doing just that and it’s been almost a coping mechanism at times. Some places I’ve found easy to contribute to include the ACLU, You Can Play, Children’s Defense Fund, The Trevor Project, ASPCA, and Planned Parenthood.
If you can contribute every little bit counts. And if you can’t, sharing links and posts really does work because people who can contribute will honestly see them.
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This past summer had been one of the best summers of my life. I’m usually all for autumn but this year I mourned summer ending. I thrashed into autumn with a feeling of loss and dread. Now it’s the last day of 2016 and I can honestly say I don’t know how 2017 is going to be but I’m ready to stare it down cold.
I’ll end it here with 9 photos top left being from Christmas Day 2016 and bottom right being from last January 2016. Followed by 2 videos of my little bunny, Gally, who passed away this year. I still miss him terribly.

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This probably won’t be some opening of floodgates followed by post after post of new content. I’m not going to even entertain the idea. But I did want to say a little about why I had my longest hiatus ever and divulge personal information that’ll likely make me cringe after posting it.

My creativity is dampened. This is in connection to the chronic pain I’ve had since October of this year. When something terrible happens to you there’s this idea that it’s temporary. Because usually it is; but not in my case at this point in time. So, I’ve had a few treatments and my current treatment I like. It helps and the side effects are minimal. But it does influence how I approach my life and my personal, creative projects have somewhat suffered. It’s not just this blog. It’s literally everything. It’s hard to find that high from accomplishment right now. It mostly just feels bittersweet at best when I complete something. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to do them. I want to blog. I want to create videos and update my Instagram and have home projects again. I want to plan vacations. It’s just that currently those things feel exhausting. So I have to tackle them in a very prioritized way so that they are enjoyable.

But holy shit do I miss this blog.
And I miss you guys.
And I want to UPDATE U P D A T E UPDAAATE.
I have a few old posts I wrote months ago I want to put up. So I think in order to move forward I’m gonna keep things really low key. Things might be really unstructured.
And there’s not 1 thing I’m “good at updating.” Everything is subject to latency for me right now. The best way to get a hold of me right now is send my Tumblr an Ask.
My Instagram is updated pretty much each weekend.
Oh, I’m on Twitter again, a lot. Because it’s an election year. You can @ me and I’ll probably see it.
I’ve also opened up my snapchat (happiijenny) and lately have been doing snap stories of magazines (I no longer have a scanner.)

I thought I’d share some music I’ve been listening to lately with end of summer vibes.
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Since I’ve been gone for so long I thought I’d just share some things I’m currently obsessed.
A few weeks ago I finally got all my potted plants outside. While they continued to grow we ended up getting 16 days straight of rain. So staring out the window at my rainy little garden has been one of my favorite things. Why fight it.
In between the rain showers I’ve been lighting incense outside and letting it come in through the windows. With being on such a 90’s trip (for the past year honestly) I rediscovered my love for incense. Well… the cones. But those aren’t popular or easy to find anymore. Instead I found these wood bricks to be a great alternative especially since they smell like a campfire and I can’t go camping until the rain quits.

I bought a sample pack from Amazon. Great price great scents! Maybe if I’m still feeling something more “incense and less campfire” I’ll order some from Blackbird. They have some really intriguing fragrances like BLOOD COUNTESS.
Beauty-wise my makeup routine has simplified since experiencing a bad drying out spell. I discovered I’m sensitive to talc products. I never realized. I stopped wearing almost all makeup for a period of time. I attempted to purge my skin with a gentle daily peel. It helped remove some of the larger stubborn acne spots but really made my skin’s texture worse. My skin is finicky especially when it’s damaged. Focusing on moisturizing with a thicker formula from Vanicream right now. It’s the only thing that would sink in for a while. And since using it I don’t feel the need for a primer. I also want to avoid silicones and excessive powders right now.
Currently I maybe wear a bb cushion once a week. Half the time I just wear a tiny bit of concealer or just dab and blend some Mario Badescu nude drying cream over the spots. My eye makeup has been nothing but glitter for the past 2 months. I’m so re-obsessed with glitter. If I want to do more I add colored eyeliner. Pretty much everything I’m using on the eyes lately is from NYX. They’re cruelty free, affordable, and easy to find.

I’m also highlighting daily. I highlight a bit beyond the generic youtube tutorial suggestions. I like to highlight my inner cheeks, around my lip and up the cupid’s bow, on the lids of my eyes, center of lip, and around the brows. I avoid my forehead, nose, and chin. Those spots get slick looking enough. Really my skin temporarily over-producing oil in the t-zone forced my hand with getting back into all-over highlight. It seemed futile to counter-balance the shine. But when I add shine to the rest of the face it comes together as more of a “glow.”

To match this “glow” I’ve gone glossy on the lips. I purchased Bite Beauty’s plain agave lip mask after trying multiple samples. At first I thought it was glorified vaseline but then I just started missing it when my samples ran out. I love it. Add a little of Pat Mcgrath’s nude pigment on top and it gives a really nice pout look.
]]>I didn’t mindfully take a break; it just happened. I spent March painting, installing appliances, and just overall spending every moment working on the house. Then in April relatives came to visit and family occupied a lot of my time. May has been dealing with my health. A flare-up had me feeling mostly miserable lately and trying to get into the headspace of dealing with chronic illness.
So that brings me to here. I wanted to talk about my home improvements and also the Minimalism documentary I caught earlier this month.
A few months ago I got into listening to The Minimalists podcasts. It was good timing as I was beginning my home improvements. I ended up getting tickets to a screening of their documentary which was very good as well as the Q&A afterwards.
A lot of it built off my whole Marie Kondo experience from before. Only taking it a step further. Discussing relationships. Discussing the societal influences of capitalism. And within that finding my own way for a life less complicated. I put more time into my relationships. Some of it paid off. Some of it was a disappointment (but nevertheless a lesson.) But I learned and moved on.
The home improvements were another great lesson. Doing the whole house clean-out back in September made it easier to pinpoint things I wanted changed. At first I did the usual thing of going online and comparing my home to that of specifically-designed-aesthetic-spaces… mistake. HUGE mistake.
“Comparison is the thief of joy!” I remind myself often. I thought I’d need to make big pricey changes. New cabinets, paint every room!? … but did I really need those things to be happy? And then I realized I was doing everything in my power to work against the space rather than with it. When I started appreciating the existing elements things became much easier.
I looked at inspiration that came to mind right away (magazines, sites.) I read in Marie Kondo’s Spark Joy that looking through inspiration should be done all at once en masse and across styles so you can swiftly see what you like, why you like it, and move forward. It worked really well in focusing my decisions. I found 1 major reference I referred to throughout the process.


This came from the first issue of Lee I ever picked up. I remember seeing these pictures and something just clicking for me. I realized the kitchen was dark like mine. My kitchen isn’t near any windows so there are shadows and what I liked about this kitchen was how the lighting worked with that fact. I liked the clean utilitarian surfaces. The magnetic knife strip especially. And just overall how simple, useful, and easy it seemed. It wasn’t trying too hard. It didn’t seem preoccupied with perfection. I didn’t need all new kitchen cabinets. I needed better lighting, more space over the stove, and my favorites at an arm’s length.





After all was said and done I ended up removing the above stove range and replacing it with a more powerful, quieter, ventilated hood that had two super bright LED lights. I ditched the wood block for a magnetic knife strip which made space for my 2 most used cooking pots. I added a few large counter-wide chopping boards that tied in the cabinets natural wood texture. I also put up a backsplash using adhesive glass tiles. No grout necessary! And they don’t budge trust me. We replaced the leaky faucet with one that’s also a spray hose. Beyond the kitchen we upgraded our TV, repainted the home office, hung new light fixtures and art work all over the house, took the guitars off their stands and hung them up, built a new TV cabinet, and took a lot of things to the recycling center. A LOT. And when I was done I came in way under budget.
I wouldn’t have been able to do any of this without the whole Konmari part earlier in the year. If I had clutter everywhere I wouldn’t have even considered new light fixtures. I would have felt “what’s the point, the place is still a mess.” Now I can do these upgrades and really feel they were worth the time and effort.
]]>Last month marked the 13 year anniversary of sushi-cat.net. A domain name I created my freshmen year of college as a sushi-newcomer and a lover of cats. Honestly I mostly only eat crustacean type sushi and I’m now pretty allergic to cats (but I still love em.) A lot of people have asked how I’ve managed to keep my blog for so long and I struggle to find a singular reason. It’s been a combination of laziness, familiarity, and scraping together a bit of cash flow to keep it up and running. Mainly it’s just something I do. It’s mine; my space. And I want it in my life.
When I first started out I had previously had blogs on free hosting sites and affiliates. The blog community was really homegrown back in the day. You made friends and often they’d introduce you to someone who happened to own site space and you piggy-backed off them. Awesome people really! Who would even do that these days?
Then you had THE BLOG QUIZZES. Oh those were the rage long before Facebook. I had created quite a number of my own and the challenge was to find image hosting that allowed hotlinking! Because bandwidth was a serious matter back then. You couldn’t just host linked images on your site or else your account would be locked for “Excessive Bandwidth” violations! A blogger’s nightmare!
The quizzes led a lot of people to my blog. And soon after I had gotten into Japanese fashion and was importing magazines (for a pretty penny) and scanning them to share. I eventually created a “CUTiE” sub-domain with a mailing list of over 3,000 subscribers. How I managed to accumulate that many people I’ll never know, but it was during the days the LiveJournal FRUiTS community was red hot and I was working with friends on things like an online crafts store called “Luff Puff” (shoutout to Em!!) to bring in some extra money during college. This was all before social media and I think Etsy was just starting up. Basically if you wanted to sell anything online you either had to create the store yourself or use eBay.
Those days were fun especially as a web developer. I’d churn out a new layout about every 2 weeks. Everyone did! New layouts were the expectation and to have the same one for over a few weeks typically meant you didn’t care about your site.




The oldest layouts. There were too many of these to even display them all. I had to grab these off archive.org. Back when many (2003-2007) people still had 56k (or DSL if you were rich) so everything was tiny. The photos, the text, the text area, the skill (LOL.)

Honestly I still love this header. LOVE IT. The 6 different fonts on the page though… no thanks.

This was my honeymoon layout when I eloped after realizing planning a traditional wedding was bumming me out every day of the week.




Made this during the days zozopeople blog community was peaking. I miss those days. Those blogs were so inspiring and were what inspired me to get an Olympus Pen camera.


Now when I update my blog it’s typically more behind the scenes and during the summer. There’s something about coding all night during summer with the windows open that just hits a soft spot in me. I don’t give a lot of time to my site these days. For one, working on sites all day for work leaves little desire to do it for “fun” all the time. Another reason is social media. I update those so often that my blog is more for documenting purposes rather than simple sharing like in the past.
When you have a blog for so long you’re going to end up dealing with the overall transparency it eventually creates. These days “Blogger” is a profession and so telling friends and family of your blog is an easy choice. But years ago you’d
1) have to explain what a blog is and
2) ensure your mother that no you were not giving out your address to murderers.
Over the years friends and family and coworkers have found this blog. Some choose to let me know in a positive way. Others chose to use it against me as an emotional weapon. And then there’s the ones who simply kept it to themselves. I prefer the last group. Because if I did not tell you about my blog I probably had a good reason or didn’t feel it was important and wanted to share my life through a different means.
This has led me down a road of waxing and waning when it comes to what I want to share on this blog. There are times I want to share very personal struggles in the hope that maybe it could help at least 1 other person. But there is the reality that these are struggles I may not want to have brought up to me by the people in my daily life who may read it as well. Not to mention the times I’ve been recognized from my blog. While extremely flattering and sweet, I’m not one looking for attention. I’m very introvert and people stopping me while I’m at the grocery store, clothes shopping, or dining out was always very startling. So when people comment for more outfit posts, selfies, etc. it’s only because I’ve chosen to try and be a bit more private over the years.
I’ve also been asked why I leave up my archives and don’t delete them even though I had changed so much! I’ll admit many of those posts are cringe-worthy, but they were who I was. And while I have grown, I don’t want to forget those things either. I’m not the type to “erase the past.” I want to grow and learn from it (while trying not to re-live it.) And really, deleting the archives would make me feel I was taking myself much too seriously! :)
That’s where I am today. Somewhere between serious and trivial.
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I decided to record the most common looks I do with my Colourpop collection. There are 4 major looks I consistently go for with them. A single tone in brown and a smudgy rock look which both feel very 90’s. Then a fresh bright pink look followed by what I typically wear when attending a Capitals hockey game.
Colourpop Super Shock eyeshadows are spongy, velvety in texture and apply easiest with fingertips. I’ll go over it with a fluffy blending brush to blur the edges when needed. Their Lippie Stix are comfortable and the matte versions last a long time even with eating and drinking. Their Ultra Matte Lips last even longer with 0 transfer. I find they last on my lips about 6 hours with continuous eating and drinking before needing a touch-up.


In the video you might notice that “beeper” dries down to a dark dusty brown. “Clueless” looks similar in the tube but it dries to a more dusty pink shade.
I doubled up my two red lippie stix for a grunge style gradient lip.
Straight Trippin from the throwback collection is a bit of a miss for me. It just doesn’t blend as well as the others. So I only use it for messy, undone looks.


I wear a liquid lipstick to games because touch-ups usually mean missing gameplay and with all the food and constant soda sipping even my matte lipsticks were failing me. I always wear a red lip there so I got Creeper specifically for wearing to games and it lasts the entire night.
I usually wear a primer under the shadows but I’ve worn “glow” and “cornelious” without primer a bunch of times and never noticed any creasing (and shadows usually crease badly on my lids.)
I find the texture of the shadows really easy for hooded eye application too. Where powder shadows can be a bit tricky, especially without the right brush, these shadows can be swept over the fold without dragging. This is a huge benefit for me because I have very hooded and plump lids and sometimes getting color to extend past the crease takes so much effort with powder shadows.
Colourpop has just been my go-to splurge for whenever I’m feeling like I want a new eye or lip color. It’s affordable, cruelty-free, LA made, and the quality is good for the price.
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So I ended up hunting down these studies and I found 2 major ones most commonly referred to in these makeup salary correlation type articles. The first is a 2008 study that found women with makeup in a work environment reinforced a sense of femininity which in turn made her appear less competent. While another popular study used is a 2010 study that instead found that women who wore “glamorous style” makeup in a work environment appeared more competent. This 2010 study was funded by P&G which looks suspect at best.
So what is the truth? This debate is most likely perpetuated for the sake of reinforcing control over women; whether your opinion is for makeup or against it. It’s still looking to dictate how you “should” be. It keeps you in a state of both knowing you should do whatever makes you happy but also trying to be strategic in your career choices. There’s no right answer because like many female conundrums it’s a trap.
If you are dead set on looking for an answer it’s better to assess your surroundings and assess your internal dialogue to discover what is right for you. Instead of reading regurgitated articles that rarely link actual studies there’s more solace to be found on Reddit boards, interviews with professionals, and discussing it with the women around you. “Be the change you want to see” but understand that no matter which path you choose it won’t put an end to the comments and questions about your appearance in today’s society.
I once read that it’s best to avoid bright lip colors in an office. I would say I agree only because I often wear bright lipstick and have had someone stop a meeting just to comment on it. I was presenting and they just stopped and asked if I was purposefully wearing it to match my outfit for the day. So yes it can be an actual distraction. And it’s whether or not you want to put up with that distraction that influences your decision on makeup in the workplace.
Personally I do both. Some days I wear no makeup and deal with any “you look tired” comments. On other days I wear the bright red lip and subtly gloss over any comments made on it. I never have a single reason why I wear makeup. Some days I do it to cover up a bad breakout (more for myself so I won’t be reminded and pick at it.) Sometimes I do it because I’m bored or I want to try a new technique. But mostly I do it to feel ethereal. It’s why I love glitter eyeshadows and shimmering highlight and bright blushes. It’s something that’s a bit beyond human and that has always appealed to me.
Lastly I want to recommend Lisa Eldridge’s Best and Worst Makeup Moments in History. It’s very informative and goes far beyond just a praise and slam video about makeup.
I went through my collection and selected some things that would work best. I mostly want to bring some color back into my makeup routine even on days I’m running too late to do my makeup at home. These are things I won’t miss using after work or on the weekends while also being easy to apply at my desk.

Dolly Wink Long Mascara. The wand and formula was changed at some point. It used to be a favorite of mine but with the formula change I might not rebuy it again. Still a good mascara but I just liked it back when it had more fibers. This does however work well even on uncurled lashes so I’ll use it up instead of tossing.

These two blushes I got in a summer festival collection. They look untouched but I’ve actually used them a lot. They’re really pigmented and very soft to the touch. You can actually apply these with your finger they’re so smooth. I’ve been applying these on top of a cream blush for that “igari makeup” look.

Real Lasting Eyeliner is such a good product. I purchased this extra fine “micro” point one to see if it made tightlining easier. Yes & no. Yes tightlining from atop the lashes is much easier but I tightline from underneath usually and this tip is so skinny it would push through my lashes and leave a mark higher on my eyelid. Wouldn’t get it again but for subtle tightlining at work it’ll do just fine.

I bought this NYX butter lipstick because I needed the shade for this Lisa Eldridge “Tippi Hedren Makeup Tutorial.” It’s a nice sweet neutral coral. I wore it a ton in summer.

This is the original Ritual de Fille cream blush I bought last winter. I stopped using this shade after I got the others from them. Plus I have this shade in a Chanel blush I use more often. So I’m bringing this in as a fool proof blush choice.

I don’t wear these two lipsticks too often anymore. The bright pink from Shu Uemura really gave me that pink flush I was into a while ago and the Chanel was seriously my legitimate shade for over a year. A my lips but better. Lately I wear matte shades in dark browns or bright reds. So I’ll take these with me to work as alternative, easy to apply options.

]]>I remember the night I bought this Sephora Moonshadow Baked Nude palette. It was on impulse because the use of “moon” and the color choices being so gorgeous. I still used this palette a lot but damn is it messy. The shades are easy to apply wet or dry and I felt it was being under-utilized lately. So leaving it at work will hopefully mean more opportunity to use it.

The east coast got hit with a blizzard over the entire weekend which led to a lot of time at home shoveling and being bored. We attempted to walk around the neighborhood but still most of it was buried under 2 feet of snow and we didn’t get very far. I’ve been working at home and cooking in every night. Which is good! But my food reserves are starting to get low.
To pass the time over the weekend I made a quick “snowday makeup” video using mostly creamy products. The air is so dry I’ve been avoiding most powders since last week. So there’s no real base makeup to this just color points. Also I cut my hair last week…
Yeah, makeup + snow does seem a bit pointless but at the very least I need something protecting my lips at all times. I like Ritual de Fille’s cream blushes because they’re hydrating the way a chapstick seems hydrating. It feels like there’s a layer of protection that keeps my cheeks from drying out and the L’Oreal Lumi Illuminator is very moisturizing and soft.
I used Milani’s new oil treatment in Rosehip over a few touches of Colourpop’s Fetch. The Milani oil is so hydrating. My lips always look great when it’s on and it’s not one of those lip treatments that leaves your lips feeling worse when not wearing it. I can really tell a difference since picking this up.
I’ve done a bad job at trying to beat the dry winter air this year and I’m paying dearly for it. I should have switched to a moisturizing hand soap sooner. Should have switched off of matte lipsticks and onto lip treatments sooner. Should have done a lot of things sooner. Now I’m completely out of my 25% shea butter body lotion until I can get out to the store. Might try to remember to use some coconut oil in the shower tonight to save my skin until I can restock on my lotion.
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Back in October I posted about my skin having a terrible acne flareup after a bad sunburn. Soon after I updated with thoughts on having extractions done at my dermatologist’s.
I posted a photo of my skin the next day. Here’s an updated version of then and now.
My skin cleared up in December finally. Along the way I tried a lot of different products, many which I did not like and will skip talking about. Benzoyl peroxide & salicylic acid did nothing or made things worse. And I realized I’m mildly allergic to benzoyl peroxide which I discovered after using the prescription cream my dermatologist prescribed me. My skin was dried out. So dried out that it was over-producing oil in an effort to save itself. The oily itchy bumps were a cry for help. I didn’t learn about this until my extraction day. The extraction itself was moot. Most of the clogged pores returned a couple of weeks later.

These are my current holy grail items. The products I purchased and saw real results. I had to add in a new item one by one. Test them individually to keep track of what was helping and what wasn’t. I was more aware of ingredient labels than ever before.

My skin was incredibly itchy whenever I’d sweat. Those red oily bumps were a nightmare under the florescent lights of an office meeting. The first thing I did was find a way to calm my skin. I fell in love with the 7 Wonders Caribbean Coconut Calming Mask available at Ulta. I bought countless numbers of them. At first I used them every day. Then every other day. And now sparingly whenever I see my skin looking a bit dry.
I also picked up a 100% rose water spray. Alteya Organics Bulgarian Rose Water. I had tried versions with extras added (aloe, herbs, collagen,) but the pure stuff was the only truly soothing spray I found. Luckily it was the cheapest as well! I can use this spray whenever I like for a quick moisture burst.

My old cleansers upset my skin so badly after the flareup. I tried out so many different cleansers with no luck. Then a friend suggested Free & Clear Liquid Cleanser. This stuff is so gentle. washes away clean, works with my clarisonic well, but doesn’t over dry.
When I wear heavy makeup I have always needed a double-cleanse or else my pores would clog. I started using NUDE Skincare Purify Cleansing Wash. It’s a jelly that turns milky and removes makeup really well without being harsh. When I started using it I saw a lot of my blackheads disappear.

My skin has always been sensitive to oil. Not just mineral oil but celebrated oils such as argan or grapeseed. So for daily moisturizers I needed oil-free. These moisturizers are actually old favorites that my skin still liked. Eventually I’d like to return to an spf+ lotion but currently I’m using a separate spf when needed. Ole Henriksen Sheer Transformation is the everyday lotion I use under makeup often after applying SANA’s Soy Milk Emulsion to my forehead and chin.
I use SANA’s Soy Milk Cream when I’m feeling a little dry on no-makeup days or at night and Hawaiian Tropic Silk Hydration SPF when I’m going to be outdoors.

These are the heavy duty performers of my skincare routine. These are the products that gave me immediate positive results. I knew that if my skin needed moisture, and I didn’t respond well to oil-based daily lotions, I’d need to find some other way. I had a sample of Sunday Riley Luna Sleeping Night Oil and it was the first oil that didn’t break me out. My skin felt so supple in the mornings after using this. Plus it faded my scars rather quickly. It’s a retinol with the added benefit of a moisturizing oil. I had a cleanser & a cream with retinol from my dermatologist but both of those caused my acne to get worse. I blame the other ingredients (a drying cleanser and benzoyl peroxide.) It is hands down my favorite product.
Next to tackle the bumps, texture, and clogged pores I tried a 5 pack of Dr. Dennis Gross Skincare Alpha Beta® Universal Daily Peel and liked it a lot. I used these every few days, maybe once a week now. Instead of using the Luna oil I’ll use this and the next day blackheads will be gone and any tiny pimples will be hurried along to heal. I tried the extra strength version but it was too strong and made things worse.
The last bane of existence were the big, swollen, giant pimples. I had 4 major ones on my forehead that lasted months. Every time they’d pop they’d just return again. I received the Omorovicza Deep Cleansing Mask as a Christmas gift and it was exactly the last phase my skin needed to overcome this huge ordeal. The mask pulls out clogs from deep in the skin. As disgusting as it sounds I know it works because as each zit came to the surface I noticed each had 2 or 3 layers of “clog.” You know… each time you’d squeeze it was like a whole ‘nother zit popped… gross. Gross but over. Seeing what felt like permanents zits finally heal and leave felt so satisfying. I still use this once a week. I have a few texture spots on my chin I’m working through eliminating for good.

DHC’s cleansing oil was one of the many things I tried when looking for a non-drying makeup remover. I bought this little guy at Urban Outfitters. Very affordable. Works great. Nothing special but definitely works well.
The Tony Moly pore cooling mask I got at Ulta. It’s a pore-tightening mask so I didn’t use it too much because tightening = drying. But even though it’s a drying type mask I never felt like my skin was left too dry or stretched. It’s really softening actually. Was nice to use after my skin had initially calmed down some.
This was just my skincare emergency journey and I know not everyone’s will be the same. I wanted to share what’s been working for me. My combination skin (oily t-zone dry cheeks) was in desperate need of deep moisturizing. For me the most important thing was retaining as much moisture as I could while adding in extra amounts.
I also know many of these items are very expensive. The type of product is what’s most important. The calming mask contains chamomile and coconut oil.
The Luna Sleeping oil can be broken down into 2 main parts; retinol and oil. So a good alternative would be a retinol serum plus a facial oil that your skin responds to in a positive manner.
The Omorovicza mask is a mud mask and I’d only recommend the splurge if your acne is the worst it’s ever been. Otherwise a good alternative would be to try the Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay. It’s less than $10 and you could add a drop of tea tree oil or neroli in while mixing it up. I plan on picking it up myself when the Omorovicza runs out.
I did try some physical exfoliaters but boy that made things so much worse! Chemical exfoliters were much more gentle at attacking the texture. And as for Glam Glow I had to terminate using any of their products. They only made my skin itchy or worse after the sun damage. Before I had 2 of their masks and the cleanser and loved them but in a damaged-state my skin responded very negatively to all of their products.
Feel free to ask me questions in the comments. I’m not an expert, and everyone’s skin reacts differently, but if you think we have similar skin and have experienced a similar situation maybe my experience can help in some way. I’m just happy to report that I’m on my way to getting my old skin back!
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I’ve been asked for a while if I could blog about my experience with the whole KonMari method of tidying and decluttering my entire house. I don’t want to be some zealot pushing this approach onto uninterested people. Marie Kondo even states that only those who want to read her book should read it and buying the book for someone else is a bad idea. And it makes sense. Before you really put a lot of thought into the ways your life needs decluttered you too easily point to someone you know wishing THEY’D be more organized first. But in reading the book, and going through the process, you actually let go of how others organize their lives. You realize it’s a very personal experience; decluttering. And after you do it others will often approach you about it. But then some might take offense to something they deem as a “drastic measure.”

In my office I cleared away all remaining Japanese magazines that no longer sparked joy. I went through each one individually and kept only the ones I cherished. There were hundreds to go through. I had to make a separate trip to the recycling center just to deposit them (as the library did not want them sadly.) This process was easier than I expected as I could remember my favorite issues by just the cover. I did sort them twice. I went through my “sparked joy” pile a second time just to be sure.

I made the mistake of mentioning to my mother that we were organizing the house last September. She’s very sentimental and she’s aware that I don’t “hang onto things” (her words not mine.) It resulted in a very heated argument over the silliest things (that I shred old bills and other very random disagreements.) There’s a chapter in the book about not “letting them see.” The people in your life can easily take offense to even just knowing you may be giving away “perfectly good ____.” So… it’s a very personal journey.
For that reason I knew I didn’t want any before and after photos. There was no reason to compare the two. I wasn’t trying to “throw away the most stuff” or “develop the most creative stacking system.” I was simply trying to surround myself with only my favorite items. Things that… spark joy.

Before reading Marie Kondo’s book I was already doing some of the methods on my own. I’ve always been an organized person. Ultra-tidy; tad obsessive. But I also always hit brick walls. On days I was sick the house would fall apart. Some days I would just feel bummed entering a certain room even if it was neat and clean. I’d then turn it upside down trying to “fix something” but I never knew exactly what. I looked at my possessions in more of a “what can I get rid of” way. And this approach comes up in the book. I’ll be honest; many parts of this book really struck a nerve. The craziness and frustration I would sometimes feel… it was a relief to know I wasn’t alone.
When I started seeing my items, all of them, one by one as sparking joy or not it became much easier. I realized that many of my favorite things were hidden behind or next to some items I never even had feelings towards. So why was I keeping it? To take up space on my bookcase? Because a magazine somewhere one day said I needed this to “have a real home?” I’d get sucked into that nonsense pretty easily.

I used to hang all my clothes but I actually prefer the method the book recommends. I’m able to get dressed so quickly now and I never feel I have “nothing to wear.” I hang all my skirts and a few shirts or tops that didn’t seem happy folded in the drawers (wrinkled too easily or fabric not suited to folding.)
The two items on the shelf are new from Christmas. I like to display new or favorite items until I feel ready to fold them up with everything else. I like walking in and seeing them there.

I played around with color order but definitely got the best results from Marie Kondo’s advice to go from dark to light.


I like keeping my current favorite shoes out both for easy access and to have them on display so I always feel like I have great options.
It’s a daunting process that can take weeks. It’s done in stages. And I did everything. From clothes to bath goods, medicines, pots and pans, and even our food. Immediately after the process (which for me was like a high,) I felt both relieved and at a loss. Similar to finishing a long binge watch of a TV show. I somehow wished I could do it again but I couldn’t because it was done. Soon after living just became… easier. I got sick a month later and the things that usually fell apart didn’t. Laundry didn’t end up piling on the floor. I wasn’t behind on groceries or cleaning house or picking up. In fact “picking up” was no longer even a daily task of mine anymore. And that’s why I loved the book. My life truly is easier. It’s more at peace. I don’t feel like I always “need something new.” I’m still amazed when I go to find something and there it is in the spot it always is.

I don’t even know how many times I purged my makeup stash in my life but it always felt like a never-ending process. I had to set a real vision of what I wanted from my makeup items before going through each item individually. It was harder than doing clothing. I ended up parting with expensive items such as Hourglass Ambient Lighting Palette which never suited my skintone and always frustrated me when wearing.
But when you open a drawer and you only see your favorites… it’s an amazing feeling. Guilt-free mornings choosing what to put on was worth the process. Much of my makeup only sparked joy with the initial purchase while others were still sparking joy on a daily basis for me.

Shopping has become so much easier. I stopped “stocking up” on things. I have vastly diminished impulse-buy cravings. And I don’t feel guilty spending on something I want.
Looking at every single thing I own individually made me realize what I’m passionate about. It was akin to a journey through my life as well. I was surprised at some of the things I still had hanging around. I also got a better sense of what I enjoy and how I became the person I am today. In a way it helps hone your own personal style from clothing, to decorating, to even cooking. I couldn’t believe I’d actually have pots and pans that “sparked joy” but I did.


Being able to appreciate the things that no longer make you happy and letting them go was key in a bedroom filled with an old broken alarm clock I never used and a TV that was more of an eyesore 90% of the time than useful. The TV was also a reminder for me of the times I spent in bed 2 years ago when I was too sore and in pain to even move. I hadn’t ever realized I had made that association until I had to truly consider whether or not that TV “sparked joy.”

I’ve become extremely familiar with that initial “yes” feeling that it’s spread into my daily life. It’s given me better decision making skills. I suddenly had all this practice in deciding what I did and didn’t like that it was easier to tell when I was doing something for myself or out of pressures and guilt.
This book was the missing piece I needed for so many years. I needed to know how to part with things that didn’t make me happy. I needed this all encompassing process to achieve the sort of reboot I had been searching for throughout the years. I haven’t returned to any of my old ways. It’s too obvious after you complete the process which habits make you unhappy and which spark joy.

One of the suggestions from the book I loved was that you likely have everything you need already to organize your possessions. You don’t need to run out to a container store and buy 25 different storage bins. I repurposed an old candle jar for my nail tools. The book suggests smart phone boxes make great storage bins and it’s 100% true. I, of course, had all my old iPhone boxes lying around. Now they’re organizing everything from baggu totes to beautyblender cleanser.



My cabinet used to be overflowing with skincare. Much of which I rarely used or didn’t even like using. Now I only have my trusty favorites. I do still buy new things and I keep it in a spot on the counter until I’ve made my verdict. If it becomes a favorite I find space for it. But oddly enough I’ve stopped frantically buying so much and don’t really have a space issue. Unlike before, if I’m not 100% happy with a product, I return it.

I used to keep my hair care and hair accessories in a bunch of different places. The book really reinforces centralized location for similar items and this has made my life a million times easier especially on mornings I’m running late and my hair is a mess. Now I always remember that I have nice accessories or dry shampoo when I’m rushing to get out the door.

I dedicated a basket to all “relaxing spa” items. A whole basket I can just pull out when I’m stressed and find something to treat myself.

I was skeptical about clearing off small appliances from countertops in the kitchen but it has worked out wonderfully. Pulling them out when needed and returning them when done has been easier than expected and it’s kept the counters from getting cluttered when cooking.

I went through every single plate, bowl, and glass I owned. I used to have cabinets overflowing with dinnerware that never got used.

I forgot I had these Hello Kitty dishes. I never used them really. They’re from a gift set I was given while in college and seeing them really brightens my day then I realized I could use them every day for a multitude of things and not just for holding sauces. I use them mostly to hold spices while cooking and it’s made cooking a lot more efficient!

I did our food as well. Surprisingly quick and simple I found a few better ways to organize the food we eat and I have a better idea of what we have at all times now. I used to accidentally buy an item I already had over and over again. One time I ended up with 3 bottles of garlic powder at the same time. Not anymore!
I used a mixture of repurposed gift box lids and Target storage solutions. The bag I keep rice and potatoes in is a $3 burlap bag Target sells in their dollar area.

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- Hourglass mineral veil primer
- L’Oreal True Match Lumi Liquid Glow Illuminator
- YSL TOUCHE ÉCLAT concealer
- Anastasia Brow Wiz
- Hourglass Ambient Lighting powder
- Bobbi Brown shadow in wheat
- Milani Tantastic Baked Bronzer
- Laura Mercier Matte Radiance Powder
- Shu Uemura Aya Takano Reindeer Kiss Palette
- Majolica Majorca Lash King Brown (br666)
- Revlon Colorstay Moisture Stain
Shu Uemura teamed up with Maison Kitsuné for this year’s holiday collection. While the collection itself at times made me go, “…hmmm,” the cheek and eye palette was too eye-catching for resistance. So I purchased it. Used a promo code for the free makeup bag which is really nice, sturdy, and fits a ton.



I have a lot to say about this palette and the collection as a whole. Some of the promo shoot photos are a bit… obnoxious. The east meets west concept just sort of washes over me at this point. But with that said if anyone was going to do it Maison Kitsuné at least makes sense. But man some of the official promo photos make me side-eye. There were much better Youtuber collaborations and blog posts that made this palette desirable and in the end the main makeup looks were what made me consider really buying the palette.
I especially loved this look below.

The Plum Eye & Cheek Palette looks very colorful but I’m here to tell you it’s extremely sheer. I don’t wear bold colors outside of neutral tones very often. I was surprised by just how wearable these shades are. They’re sheer especially when using fiber brushes. If you want more of the pigment you’ll need to use the sponge applicator provided or your finger…
The top 3 shades in wine and plum are the most pigmented and go on easily with a fiber eyeshadow brush. The rest of the eyeshadows are varying forms of glitter. The silver and gold are shimmery glitter. If you’ve gotten these colors in past holiday palettes they do not compare. These are just glitters, with sheer pigments. The pink and orange are big chunky glitters that you’ll need to use something more sturdy to really pack them on. And yes, there is fall-out. A lot of it. I have glitter on my upper cheeks still from packing on the pink yesterday even with an eyeshadow base.
The blush is one of the nicest shades of orange I’ve ever used. I had tossed all my old orange blushes because they washed me out. But this one doesn’t. It works more like an orangey bronzer. I was pleasantly surprised! The eye colors really do compliment the blush shade. It’s a fun take on what was my everyday look of neutral neutral neutral.
The formula is much different than past palettes. I had 2013’s Shu Uemura x Takashi Murakami palette which was creamier in texture and much more pigmented than this year’s. And I had the infamous 2010 Aya Takano x Shu Uemura collection which, hands down, was the best formula of shadows and blushes I’ve ever owned.
All-in-all I’m happy with my purchase! I like the color choices and the easily wearable looks I can get from the palette. It feels more future-forward than a lot of the other popular palettes out there this holiday season and it’s a fun to wear. Plus deep down I’ll always be a sucker for anything paris-tokyo mashup (gamine style for life.) The formula could have been better or the price less. I probably won’t be purchasing another of Shu Uemura’s palettes for a few years. I keep finding that they don’t work with any other brushes but their own and the formulas keep having a low-quality feel to them.
I was hoping to take some photos of the palette on but I’ve been very sick lately. I just wanted to get these up and my thoughts about it out since I took the photos in early November. It’s long overdue.
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First up this elf cosmetics complexion brush. I bought it while visiting family this summer to go with a bronzer I picked up while there. I just needed something to hold me over until I could use my IT Cosmetics face brush. Well, to my surprise, I found myself reaching for this a lot even after getting home. It’s really nice for applying bronzer, highlight, face powder, anything. I hadn’t planned on keeping it but I really like it for travel and for using when I want to apply a heavy bronzer look.

I posted on Instagram when I ordered a bunch of Morphe brushes after finding recommendations on YouTube. These 3 were instant stand-outs.
G14 – OVAL SHADOW
G17 – ROUND BLENDER
M500 – DELUXE POINTED BLENDER
The G14 oval shadow brush is fantastic. I use it mostly as my eyeshadow base brush or if I’m only applying a single color. It’s large and soft and does a good job of both aplying color and blending out the edges a bit while you apply. It was my immediate favorite.
The G17 blender brush I like for blending my concealer. It didn’t do much on my eyes. My lids are very plump and textured hoods. I need something harder for blending eyeshadow. But for concealer this has been fantastic for airbrushing over zits and blending out around the under eyes and nose.
Lastly the M500 is a nice versatile face brush. I got it because the shape reminded me of my Paul and Joe travel blush brush which I love. It’s a bit softer and thinner than that though. It does a great job with bronzer when you want to slowly build up color (office look) and I use it for highlighter and blush as well. It’s for soft application. I use it every day I do makeup now. It works really well for me as winter approaches and I’m grower ever paler. I can easily apply too much color as I transition to vampire pale…

This thing is what I use for contouring. Sephora’s Classic Mini Multitasker. I went through so many brushes looking for one to do my contour just right and this has been it ever since I ordered it on sale months ago. Contouring on pale skin leaves very little room for mistakes. Angle brushes often cut “outside the lines” when I used them (I had to be too precise.) The soft medium stiff round brush here was perfect. It runs $14 full price but I got it for $6.99. Hopefully it goes on sale often.

That’s it for now. I have a few others that I only sort of like or am still experimenting with. A few eco tools brushes and a new elf mini blender brush for eyeshadow.
]]>I saw this one I put together in early October. I had forgotten about it but looking back now I LOVE IT. I need it. I need some extra joy in my life to outweigh the current stress (I’ve been sick and overworked.) So here is that “mood” from October 5th.
“ I had a vision last night (for all intents and purposes) of my autumn “look.” Straight line smokey eyeshadow. Bright lips. Straight chin length hair. I also purchased some clear frames off ebay today similar to Mackenzie Davis’ in Martian to pair with my CK one lipstick and sweatshirt. Black skinnies, and thick glasses a lot. I want some more rounded but it’s hard to find. Maybe I should order a those ones off UO. They had these black petite round ones. But my own thick glasses would be good and give my eyes a break from everyday contacts for a while.“
Images from xoVain, Ena Matsumoto Blog, The Martian movie.





