Happy Birthday, time to grow up.

Tuesday, July 25th, 2006 | 13 Comments

It’s my little sis’s 15th Birthday today. Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag! It’s funny how different she is at 15 and where the family is now compared to where I and my family were when I was 15. I envy her…, truly.

So, not to jinx myself but I’m the happiest I’ve been in months. I don’t mean just today, I mean for the past few weeks. I know, 3 bad/tough days in a row… but that’s nothing to me. It’s just a bad streak & I know that, of course. What I’m referring to is me, as a person, since moving here. It was what I wanted when I first moved here, but the whole living situation (cough, roommate, cough) made the relationship between Mike and I so, so hard. As “drama-queen” as this sounds, we almost broke up about 3 times. When I say almost, I mean tears and conversations like, “Who should move out?” … sigh. It was hard. And yet I talk about it like it’s nothing anymore.

I’m happy again. I know we don’t have any “relationship” problems. We have our life to ourselves. We’re just doing great. And honestly, I just think the cliche’, “It’s not you it’s me” line over and over. Because it WAS just me. I couldn’t deal with everything new. No family, no real friends, no knowledge of the area… new job… I couldn’t deal with that PLUS other drama and I pushed it all onto our “relationship.”

Anyway. BLAH BLAH BLAH I felt like blogging all this and so… I did:calmair:

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