Too cloudy

Wednesday, June 18th, 2008 | 20 Comments

My Dad has surgery tomorrow. Just minor, though he’ll have to rest for 4~5 weeks before being able to go back to work. I feel anxious for him. Not because of the surgery, but b/c he’s a workaholic and being put on bed rest for over a month must feel like a literal nightmare to him. So for Father’s Day I got him season 1 & 2 of this old western series I knew he liked. I don’t think he realized I remember watching it with him as a kid. :puup: It’ll hopefully distract him for a while.

for Karme: HOW TO BRAID :doubleheartglitter:

At least I have tea~
Karme has gotten me hooked on my webcam again!
:driftingheart:

Lately my… positivity(?) has been taking big hits. So last week I began working on gaining it back (”it ” includes me enjoying work, having good self-esteem, being excited over the little things… ) All those things have been slipping away from me for the past month. I don’t like be unhappy (who does?) b/c unhappiness is so addictive. it’s so easy to stay unhappy and it’s such a self-validating drug. It’s destructive and I know it’s not worth putting mental energy into. I don’t know why I’m saying this? Maybe because it’s late & Mike’s asleep & it’s too cloudy to see the solstice moon & I’m so busy at work & everyone keeps asking me when I’m getting married & I’m trying to prepare for a friend to visit in 2 weeks & I want to travel & I want my savings to be where it was pre-house & I want my family to be happy &, &, &, & life… no one said it would be easy and I understand that. I lost my footing… just gotta find out where I left off. ショボ━━━━(´・ω・`)━━━━ン

Hey… they just announced the water is safe to drink again Good, I was tired of brushing my teeth with bottled water and having to boil water before using it in anything! (FYI, we HAD water, It’s not like I couldn’t shower, it’s just that it had to be boiled before consumption just in case it was contaminated :good: )