Too cloudy
Wednesday, June 18th, 2008 | 20 Comments 
My Dad has surgery tomorrow. Just minor, though he’ll have to rest for 4~5 weeks before being able to go back to work. I feel anxious for him. Not because of the surgery, but b/c he’s a workaholic and being put on bed rest for over a month must feel like a literal nightmare to him. So for Father’s Day I got him season 1 & 2 of this old western series I knew he liked. I don’t think he realized I remember watching it with him as a kid. :puup: It’ll hopefully distract him for a while.
for Karme: HOW TO BRAID :doubleheartglitter:
At least I have tea~
Karme has gotten me hooked on my webcam again!
:driftingheart:
Lately my… positivity(?) has been taking big hits. So last week I began working on gaining it back (”it ” includes me enjoying work, having good self-esteem, being excited over the little things… ) All those things have been slipping away from me for the past month. I don’t like be unhappy (who does?) b/c unhappiness is so addictive. it’s so easy to stay unhappy and it’s such a self-validating drug. It’s destructive and I know it’s not worth putting mental energy into. I don’t know why I’m saying this? Maybe because it’s late & Mike’s asleep & it’s too cloudy to see the solstice moon & I’m so busy at work & everyone keeps asking me when I’m getting married & I’m trying to prepare for a friend to visit in 2 weeks & I want to travel & I want my savings to be where it was pre-house & I want my family to be happy &, &, &, & life… no one said it would be easy and I understand that. I lost my footing… just gotta find out where I left off. ショボ━━━━(´・ω・`)━━━━ン
Hey… they just announced the water is safe to drink again 
Good, I was tired of brushing my teeth with bottled water and having to boil water before using it in anything! (FYI, we HAD water, It’s not like I couldn’t shower, it’s just that it had to be boiled before consumption just in case it was contaminated :good: )
I’m going to bed. I’ll probably wake up tomorrow & feel the need to erase such emo dribble (aaaaahahah 
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Jenny posted at 10:59 pm ; Wednesday
TAGS: hair, cam, tea, emo
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Awww, I’m really sorry to hear about your dad! My Dad is also a workaholic @-@. He just turned 50 today, but it’s still very hard to believe seen he’s so young looking O.o lol. I hope the operation goes well.~
Eee, I guess everyone has those segments in life where they feel like everything is slowing down and things are getting dry in their lives. Things do get better over time though. We’re only human, our lives can’t always be perfectly happy. Being perfectly sounds artificial anywho x3 lol.
ダイジョブ!~
BTW- That’s great about the water being safe to drink again! We can’t live without watteeer!
Sometimes I feel like I need to be more positive and enjoy little things too. I agree that it’s so easy to just stay in a slump. Whenever I need to pull myself out of it, I look at flickr. For some reason, the ‘whatsinyourbag’ group always cheers me up. I think it’s just all the bright colorful things people carry around with them.
BTW, thanks for the scan of the short hair styles. I have short hair and I love it, but sometimes it gets so boring because there’s not much to do with it. I think I’m going to try making it wavy.
so many shout outs too karme.
hahaha FINALLY YOU GET TO SHOWER. CREAN WATER. go scrape that grease off your face
I hope your dad has a quick recovery after the surgery.
Yeh it is easy to feel low. For these holidays I’m going to try a lot harder to gain my positivity back. It’s weird for me, I don’t remember a time where I was all smiles anymore. I forget.
It’s hard to be positive all the time. NO ONE is positive all the time, and if they say they are they’re lying ahaha. What you can try to do is attempt to see the silver lining in everything. You trip on the street and bust a shoe heel? hey, excuse to get 2 more pairs of shoes (the extra one is “just in case”
. And maybe do activities that you know are guaranteed to make you happy, like look up funny videos on Youtube.
Yay for water! Bottled water doesn’t have the same effect as running water- at all.
aww, that’s sweet of you! i hope our father’s surgery goes well and that the bed-rest won’t become to much for him!
I hope your dad is better after the surgery
Aww, that’s a really good Father’s day present. Very thoughtful.
Yay for clean water again!
I hope the surgery goes well for your dad!
Yeah sometimes so many things are happening in your life, you just feel like you need a break from all that and stuff.
Is it me or is that cup really big?
so cute though.
oh wow you just spoke exactly what’s been going through my head lately! i was talking to ray about it last night but he’s a guy and he just doesn’t quite get it. I *totally* relate. being depressed is so addictive and easy, and it takes work to keep facing forward and being happy. It’s so nice to hear someone else say that! I’m sending positive vibes your way
I hope your dad’s surgery and post-surgery goes well
jen-sama so cute
DDD
I hope you’re dad is recovering from surgery and that it went well!
Hmmm, I understand the part about losing your footing and I suppose we all have to go through it because as if life is perfect. I really hope things start to get easier for you~ :3
I hope your dad’s surgery went well Jen~ haha when my grandmother had her operation a couple of months ago…we were worried about the same thing…she doesn’t know what relaxing and taking it easy is….she hates resting…so it was a little difficult~
Glad the water is safe again!
I’m a work-addict too, so I understand how your dad feels. I’m glad you can drink water again! I couldn’t bear to be without it. It tastes so good. Keep your chin up and all will be well. I know it’s crappy advice.
i hope ur dad feels better after the surgery.
and it is very true what you wrote about happiness. I think after coming here and being really by myself, literally by myself, no friends no mom no one. it’s just myself and my cousin….
haha
i feel lost a lot of the times but i also feel good too.
hi 5 for feeling good
Aww, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad! My dad recently had surgery on his knee, and once he heals from that he has to have surgery in his left elbow…then after that heals he has to have surgery on the other elbow! He won’t be able to work for almost a year. ;___; He’s already driving us crazy, being home all the time, hahaha! It’s putting a lot of financial stress on the family right now, though.
I hope you feel better soon! A good night’s sleep can often make those feelings go away!
feel better jenny! being negative IS like a drug! it’s so easy.. but i guess it’s bad for your health too… interesting way to think about it, gotta stay off the unhappiness!
aww poor your dad!! i hope he gets better soon and you got a good memory for remembering that show ^^
i tend to do the negative thing too.. it takes uch mroe effort to stay happy so i tend to get all pesimistic and stuff but im working on it
you stay happy too~
yeah we all feel like that sometimes.. it’s hard to get rid off feelings like that. i always have a hard time picking up myself when i feel like that. but it’s important to enjoy the little things in life (yes like tea!!) i hope you’ll feel better soon!
i feel like that a lot… just gotta take it one day at a time and remind yourself of how good things are vs what’s missing. x_x
aww, so sweet of you to get your dad those dvds. i bet he appreciates it