Honestly

Sunday March 13, 2011   

I feel so sick and saddened by the earthquake, tsunami, and near nuclear disasters in Japan. I feel so useless. Outside of the donations, there’s so little I can do. My friends are safe though. My best friend lives in Tokyo and is safe and my friend and college roommate in Yokohama as well. And every time I hear from them I feel more at ease. And I truly appreciate my family calling to ask how my best friend is doing.

I’ve been watching NHK World nonstop. I know, for my own sanity, I should try and return to my daily routine. I know I’m letting it eat away at my heart. But I find it so hard. I worry about my friend. How sad she must be feeling for her own country. I’ve been wearing things and using items she’s given me over the years. Shirts, bags, socks, and even shoes I bought while on shopping trips with her. It comforts me somehow. Remembering our happy times together. Make her seem less far away.

I have work tomorrow. So I need to be able to focus but I worry I’ll still have a foggy mind. It feels like I’m a bit alone in this though. With the poor US media coverage. Most people don’t seem as affected. Maybe I’m letting it pull me down too far? And the cruel and ignorant pearl harbor remarks enrage me!! Heartless callous people. It makes me feel ashamed and embarrassed for my country. I don’t know. I don’t know what else to say. What can you say. Really. Heartbreaking. I try to keep in mind the words Obama shared. About how Japan will rebuild and will come back even stronger. Their remarkable engineering feats already prevented an even greater disaster, it’s truly admirable.

I didn’t really want to write these feelings, but I feel they’ll fester in me if I don’t get them out. Thank you to those who follow my twitter and have been supportive and those who have donated and shared donation and news links as well.

 



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