Heartburn
Tuesday, 10月/30日 [2007年] // 18 Comments 
I haz it. *sadface* *goes to take tums* I’ve had headaches lately too & am having to pop a bunch of aspirin or Excedrin. But that’s neither here nor there.
I’ve started randomly commenting in my comments, hahah been pretty bored this week. I also tried to reformat my PC tonight & failed. oh well~
I mailed a Halloween card to Mike today from work 
! He’s done it to me the past 2 years but I think he was too busy to this year (so I think it’s my turn ) It’s his birthday in November. Our 7th year anniversary too (our first date was on his birthday, hahaah.) I dunno what I’m gonna get him yet 
…. sigh.
I get into phases where I repeat music over & over & over and right now ELO’s Mr. Blue Sky is one of those tracks. [I could only find a live version on youtube or this Kare Kano fanvid, hahahaah.] I really wanted to find the scene from the Dr. Who episode “Love & Monsters” but I doubt anyone caaaaaaaaaaaaaares about my sad Dr. Who love. [all I want in ‘08 is for David Tennant to wear his glasses moooore :X ]
I digress, though I’m not sure what from…
Talking to my Mom lately is so hard. She keeps dumping all my little sister’s problems onto me. My little sister is 16 and apparently on a 1-way track to becoming a complete failure. SHE dumps her problems onto Mom who then dumps them on me so I can walk around all pissed after talking to her. But I don’t WANT to tell my Mom not to talk to me about these things because I don’t want to leave her alone and stressed. I’d rather take on the burden. I’m protective of my Mother. It’s always been that way. I feel responsible for her, even though I shouldn’t. My Mom is almost like a perpetual 17-year old runaway. It gets to me sometimes.
I just want her to be happy.
I just want EVERYONE to be happy, even if it means I’m not.
[though to clarify, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life 
]
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October 30, 2007 @ 10:22 pm
It is very sweet of you to think about your Mom like that
I think you could be happy when everyone around you are happy, but that doesn’t mean that you are not deserved to be happy 
But then, to think about it more, you have Mike, you also have wonderful family… You are happy 
Anyway, Happy Halloween!
October 30, 2007 @ 10:32 pm
Family relationships are the hardest in my opinion. Even after all these years I still don’t know how our relationship. Yet I can’t leave her alone. I also know how it feels to take on other’s problems. Even though people yell at me for doing it. I figure if I don’t who else would? There has to be someone others can rely on, no matter what it is.
October 30, 2007 @ 11:28 pm
That’s so cool of doing the whole card on Halloween. Like a batmail or something…
I’m sorry to hear about sister having problems right now. I know my mom bitch to my sister about me a lot and I don’t even hear about it until months later, after my mom got over it. I think it started when her menopause started…
October 31, 2007 @ 2:11 am
to be honest, iforgot about halloween, i have an exam the next day
it’s more like cram night which is much more scary than any ghosts i could encounter
happy anniversary and hbd to mike =) i hope u guys have a great night
you guys are move in nov right? tell me ur new address so i can send a housewarming gift te
cactus anyone
October 31, 2007 @ 3:05 am
My mum’s rather lonely here in Australia because she can’t speak English well enough to talk about all her problems and the chinese speaking people here are gossipy and she doesn’t like that. So i’m the only one for her to talk about how much she misses all her friends back home and it’s very saddening. I keep telling her she only has a few more years to go since my brother’s still rather small and he needs her here, but it’s definitely not much solace.
I guess the point is, I know exactly how you feel and congrats for just taking it. Sometimes I want to lash out at my mum because she’s just too judgemental when meeting people which is sort of why she doesn’t have many friends here, but then I don’t want to get into a fight with her.
Oooh… this is very long. I’m going to stop now.
October 31, 2007 @ 4:29 am
Wow. I’m glad to find your blog. It’s very surprising (and I’m glad) to find a non-asian person into Japanese fashion.
I really like the fact you review a lot of the stuff!
I am using bath salts right now too — I came back from a recent visit from Japan/Taiwan, and am into their cosmetics and skin care products!
October 31, 2007 @ 5:59 am
my mum talks to me about her problems a lot too, sometimes it scares me esp. when they concern the family :/ i know what you mean about wanting everyone to be happy even if it means sacrificing your own. i do that but it annoys my bf and he gets unhappy. so then i realise i guess your happiness does come first, b/c without your happiness how can you make anyone happy?
HAPPY HALLOWEEN JEN!
hope your heartburn and headaches get better!
October 31, 2007 @ 8:10 am
i’m sorry about the family problems. i always feel like family ties grow like that over the years and it’s not very likely they change anymore. so you just make the best of it and you start becoming more and more of your own person.
October 31, 2007 @ 8:41 am
Wh00t! Halloween! I’m wearing festive socks @ work.
Anywho~
Thanks, and my heart goes out to you guys that can relate. I feel that b/c I’m in such a good place in my life that i can handle the burden of my Mom’s… complaining. But I hate that it’s made me cringe whenever I need to call her. Hopefully that will be over soon.
Also, Jadelin it’s nice to meet you! & I have an LJ too, okashii_milk
October 31, 2007 @ 9:15 am
oh wow those pics are REALLY cute! I love your hair!!!
I hope you feel better soon though hun~ and i feel you on that mother-dumping-problems thing. I have a lil bro that lives in another state and my mom does the same thing to me =/
October 31, 2007 @ 11:00 am
ahhh, my mom is always telling me about my brother. he’s not really bad off or anything but he’s rather difficult. i try to talk to him and tell him to be easier on our mom but he’s 16. 16 year olds listen to know one. at least i know i didn’t! and my brother is my mini- me (who’s 6′5″!) so i doubt he listens to anyone, either. ;]
i hope you feel better!
October 31, 2007 @ 12:06 pm
Awwww your 7th anniversary. So cute!!
My mom is like yours. Only she tends to yell at me to vent her frustations.
October 31, 2007 @ 2:00 pm
Aww sweety I know the parent to your parents feeling, my mom acts like a three year old. It’s embarassing! And so difficult to deal with. I wish at least I didn’t have to live with her :/ Hope that sister of yours shapes up soon enough!
I go around humming the same song over and over and over for weeks too. Lately, it’s “You are my Sunshine” and it’s not a fun song to repeat 1000 times a day
October 31, 2007 @ 3:57 pm
Have you tried Prilosec? That works wonders for Heart burn! My husband and I both have to take that sometimes. He gets it real bad when he eats Funyuns and drinks DP, lol.
Your mom sounds like my mom. Except.. my mom dumps her problems on my baby sister who dumps them on me. She acts like a crazy 12 year old on drugs. Literally. Hope things get better for you and your sister
October 31, 2007 @ 9:34 pm
Happy Halloween!
Love the pivs, your hair is cool.
I always have the same album on for ages and ages then i change it and can never be bothered listening to the stuff i was listening to before.
October 31, 2007 @ 11:40 pm
ooh wow 7 years.
~pat pat, feel better & happy halloween
My mom and my older brother fight A LOT. And usually after they fight she comes to me and starts blabbering about how she hasn’t raised us right. And then .. she leaves home for a HOURS (and makes me really worried) and comes home like nothing happens.
I hate it.
I hope everything goes fine with you and your family =(
November 1, 2007 @ 12:11 am
Aww how nice of you to do that~
I just hope that everything goes well with your family.
November 1, 2007 @ 1:11 pm
i understand how you feel about your mom - mine is like that as well although i have a slightly better situation where my mom bounces between my sister and me with complaints though I get the bulk as I’m still at home so she sees me more often…… best wishes to you and your family ^___^
on a happier note, thank you so much for scanning japanese fashion magazines!! you are amazing!!!! it’s such a hassle for me to bug my friends to get them for me whenever they go to japan. so do you currently live in japan? if you do, that’s so cool…. and you’re so pretty! you look a lot like lena fujii in your pictures in my opinion….