Saturday Jan 20 '07

Somewhere between happy, numb, and sad (12)

Today went by pretty fast. And I smell like tacos no matter how many times I wash my hands

. Taking everything 1 day at a time isn’t hard… it’s the waiting for tomorrow that’s hard. And those fuckin’ “what if’s” that really kill. I don’t want to live life one cup of tea to the next. I want to live, enjoy, and REMEMBER the good, peaceful, happy times. But I don’t know how too. When I reflect on my current situation, I say I’m mostly unhappy. Mike disagrees. He says I’m VERY happy 85% of the time and that I just never acknowledge the happiness. He’s right. I guess I’m a closet pity-party abuser in deep denial. …. hahhahahhahahah I don’t know why I’m sharing this craziness! I’m fuckin’ crazy… a big bowl of typical 20-something MTV/Grunge generation crazy!!

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Thursday Jan 18 '07

So you had a bad day?… FUCK OFF! Comments Off

I HATE THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING IN IT

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Wednesday Jan 03 '07

shit, shat, shut (15)

There’s been a lot of balancing of karma going on this week for me. More like, of the world’s karma and I’m just a pawn. I’ve had the crappiest of times just trying to get basic things done, and I’ve also had little rays of hope added in. Case in point, the woman who was starting to be our Real Estate agent is avoiding us. Sheesh, just SAY you don’t want us as clients!! You’re an adult, and what I thought was a professional. It made me feel really shitty about myself because I had been the one talking with her. She acted rude when I said we didn’t want a condo. But fuck that! I looked at the homes up for sale today and we found two detached homes in our price range that we REALLY liked! So we’re not asking for the impossible, that lady was just being a bitch. And we don’t have to settle for a condo. So, gotta find someone else.

Lain, I got your letters. THANK YOU~~ & as for the email… I think I got it :worry2: a while ago & just forgot to reply.

Old msn icon I made with Emi & Miho random thought I wish I lived in The L Word world . Life’s boring in a pain-in-the-ass way. …. Now that Scrubs is syndicated it’s all we ever watch despite the fact we’ve seen all the episodes…. JD’s voice is now my inner voice. A bad sign on too much TV.

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Jen @ 9:28 pm ; Wednesday [url]
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Saturday Jan 20 '07

Somewhere between happy, numb, and sad (12)