Run Away Together?

Friday, December 10th, 2004 | 10 Comments

You know, getting someone to drop everything and runaway with you without a plan or money is A LOT harder than the movies depict. After all the tears all I really learned was that the Art Student was the mature responsible one while the Software Engineering major is the hidden hopeless romantic.

Life’s been so crazy lately I don’t even feel like blogging about it. BIG changes are coming with realizations that the only thing I want to do is crazy and immature. Mike’s already applying to jobs that are 12 hours away. It wouldn’t be so bad if it were somewhere I WANTED to go. But as the time approaches the more I realize I HATE the idea of moving There. Not only because it’s hot & humid and NOT Northeast, not JUST because his nuts-o family lives there. I guess all those reasons and more are why I hate it.

When you knew you’d be alone all you life travelling and you then get the complete opposite… It’s selfish I know… I just worry. Like this horrible prison of family and children and cubicles is awaiting me on this path. I don’t know how to say it to make it make sense. Of course I think of all the positives too, but I only blog these crazy insecure thoughts b/c they are the ones that plague me most. And trust me, I know I’m pessimistic. It’s not NEWS TO ME. I had to hear it so many damn times last night. <_<

I wish time would stop. I’m tired of the ride and I want off. I don’t know what I want and Holy Fuck I need to fuckin’ get it straight SOON.

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