Just when I was feeling better….

Thursday, October 26th, 2006 | 12 Comments

I’ve been dealing with new shit about every week. You know, that thing that happened October 9th. Then last weekend someone stole our pumpkins off our patio. The ones we picked at the patch. Then tonight our upstairs neighbor threatened my poor baby’s life & so I got terrified & called the cops while she was all up in his face. She had been stompin & bangin shit around for 5 hours straight! For over a month this has been happening & we’ve said nothing!! He was going to ask her kindly (like we have before) to kind of tone it down. Anyway. She, on some sort of obvious roid rage, flew off the handle and her boyfriend was holding her back from physically attacking Mike.

I’m so sick of this apartment!!!!! Luxary my ass! We pay SO much to live in this nice place & within a month it’s turned into some sort of scary ghetto! I want a FUCKIN’ HOUSE SO BADLY. So badly I cry. My emotions are so fragile right now. I’m having all this trouble at work with contract changes and health care issues. Getting set up to buy a house in an insanely high market is stressful. We’re looking at moving further away adding hours to me commute, which I don’t WANT to have to do. But we have about a year left on our lease, but we’re wanting to move out in spring anyway!

I just feel so alone right now. I just want to feel safe and happy again. I know I can. I know my environment won’t change, so I just have to find a way to deal. And every time I think I do (Like today, I was actually not feeling so down for once,) something pushes me 10 steps back :(.

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