Somewhere between happy, numb, and sad

Saturday, January 20th, 2007 | 12 Comments

Today went by pretty fast. And I smell like tacos no matter how many times I wash my hands

. Taking everything 1 day at a time isn’t hard… it’s the waiting for tomorrow that’s hard. And those fuckin’ “what if’s” that really kill. I don’t want to live life one cup of tea to the next. I want to live, enjoy, and REMEMBER the good, peaceful, happy times. But I don’t know how too. When I reflect on my current situation, I say I’m mostly unhappy. Mike disagrees. He says I’m VERY happy 85% of the time and that I just never acknowledge the happiness. He’s right. I guess I’m a closet pity-party abuser in deep denial. …. hahhahahhahahah I don’t know why I’m sharing this craziness! I’m fuckin’ crazy… a big bowl of typical 20-something MTV/Grunge generation crazy!!