Thinking About Resolutions

Monday, January 2nd, 2012 | 18 Comments

The Frog Prince exploding on New Year’s Eve. Had a really great night then a slow day yesterday.

For the New Year my resolution is to become more self-reliant again. I feel this past year I’ve been focused on trying to control the impossible. Basically, other people’s happiness. And in doing so I’ve lost myself a bit along the way. It’s such a personal resolution to share, I know, but it’s one that’s been on my mind lately.

In recent months I wasn’t sure what, if any, resolution I’d need. Last year’s was pretty successful. I did 3 months of a spending-freeze plus worked on developing my overall personal style. I knew I wanted change in that area of my life. Something slightly more mature but also more in touch with what I’ve always been drawn to and less affected by trends. In retrospect it seemed an easy resolution to have.

I combed through my 2011 archives yesterday thinking it would inspire some New Year’s Day post but all it made me think was… my life seemed on cruise-control! I know I don’t want to fill my blog with rants and sadness like my college years, but, I also couldn’t gather what was really going on with me personally either. Looking through the entries I thought, “dear lord I didn’t do shit last year.” I don’t want to look through 2012’s and think the same. I want to do more, shop less, share more, and really see my life unfold through my blog again. Not saying everything’s changing and screw the past. I am who I am! And my blog has always reflected that! But it’s just something I was reflecting on.

I wasn’t really looking for change in my life. I was happy with how everything was but maybe it was time to make some changes in order to grow so I might as well embrace it with an open mind.